Thursday, February 5, 2009

let the mind wonder~~~

i've FORGOTTEN this secret diary of mine for quite some time ady....

bad me....

went through the holidays....

went through the chinese new year!!

wanna say,

happy chinese new year again to my fellow frens b4 it's too late...

may 2009 wil b a better year for everyone in all aspect...

i'm now alone in the room...

my roommate went back b4 i reached room after my whole day class yesterday...

supposed to be the day b4 the night falls...

well,

she always go home...

even more frequent than me...

at this point,

my mind really wonder wildly...

it's gone far n out of control...

i've been bz for the whole january until i din go home for the month until chinese new year....

i might went home,

but it's more like a stop-by station for me to take a rest...

haha...

coz when i was coming back campus from 1utama,

i juz stop by my house for not more than 1/2 hour then i moved on to my journey to campus...

then during the whole month of jan,

i was bz with red crescent's activities n oso pesta tanglung's meeting...

for red crescent,

i needed to assist my head section leader to train juniors for first aid competition...

the competition was divide into several part,

mock case, bandaging, theory, community base n marching.....

well...

bcoz we din really train them b4 the previous holiday starts,

so,

those few weeks' trainings were actually intensive training....

we spent lots of the night on an empty space named dataran gemilang in ukm practising marching...

i stil remember,

one of the night,

when many of us were hungry,

but the training was not end yet,

i was too lazy to drive,

my fren took me on a motorbike ride to go to fasa 15's mamak stall to tapao food for others.....

erm,

i never really dare to ride on a motorbike....

i never ride on a motorbike on any main road b4...

so it was the 1st time on main road...

but the experience was very cool....

the wind was strong,

the night was dark,

the car was little,

n the ride was safe.....

even it was a very short journey thru n flo,

i enjoyed it a lot....

it was the 1st time i put on a helmet on my head too....

during the exact competition date,

when i was using my hp to record their marching,

i had a very weird feeling....

it's like,

i've won a very valuable prize....

a prize that u can't code a price for it....

the team is the prize...

not their performance on those 2 days....

then during my chinese new year holiday,

i've lost my dee dee(my beloved hamster).....

this is it....

that morning,

as usual,

i woke up around noon...

then i went to c my lovely hamsters...

but it was shocking when i saw a bloody hairy hamster in the cage...

n it was dee dee...

the worst part of the whole thing was,

it died bcoz of the other hamster bite it till death....

the cruel creature....

when dee dee died,

his whole body fulled with blood....

even some of the bedding got his blood...

he was like n strengthless little baby,

been tortured like never b4....

it was partially my fault,

i din realise bee bee was so desparate n angry until she did all she can to run out of the ball i used to separate both of them....

grrrr.....

then i buried the dead dee dee in the garden across the road in front of my house....

now bee bee is alone...

i dun dare to touch her anymore....

my bro neither....

we both hated her so much....

whenever i saw her,

i remember of him laying in the cage with the blood....

but my mom stil cares for it...

she even asked me if bee bee wil die of loneliness....

i...

wouldn't care....

if she really die of loneliness,

she asked for it....

there was 1 night,

when she was located in a tank,

she managed to run away...

but i found out she was juz in the garden...

i din even dare to catch it back to the tank...

but instead,

i asked my bro to catch it....

beebee-phobia...

i got no idea y she went so crazy in a sudden....

@.@

if u r reading this n feel wanna keep my bee bee...

u r welcomed to come to me...

i'll be glad...

then back to my uni life...

after red crescent,

i stil have pesta tanglung to busy with....

i've always been in dilemma with this activity...

it's a challenge for me...

i never have had the courage to announce the pose i'm holding in this activity this year.....

i've always think it's way too far for me to complete this task nicely even not perfectly....

i'm a stubborn girl with lots of weakness....

that time i went for pesta ang pow's exhibition in ukm,

there was a stall,

they do finger scanning n analise the character of u....

i went...

for fun...

as it was free...

the lady told me,

i m the kind of person that is quite confident of myself.

but at times,

i will doubt on my decisions....

i will think too much once i've made a decision...

mmmm....

kinda accurate actually....

haha....