what m i doing?

it's already 12.05am..
so considered a new day..
today i'll be having account exam at 3.30pm..
but i still not yet finish reading the notes..
of course not even the tutorial questions lar..
my mind was occupied for the whole day..
seriously whole day..
from the moment i woke up..
i've enjoyed crazily these 2 days..
i online like no one else's business..
i sit n laugh like the exam is over..
i skip meals like food is no longer important to life..
my eyes get tired easily...
my blood drips easily..
my heart ache easily..
but my tears dun drop easily anymore...

can i know y do we have exams?
is it neccessary to have exams so often?
every sem has 2 exams..
n it's like u go class for 6-7 times/weeks,
then u'll sit for exam..
wat is this?
does study need to be so stressed?
or is it bcoz i bad mood that's y i feel extra stress?
i wanna just have holidays oni ma..
oso got problems...
02/05/08, 12.20am

then my senior called me up..
he asks me out for a ride around ukm..
i was really in bad mood until dun feel like going anywhere..
but he used a trick n that was asking me to help him to do stuffs..
haha..
no way i can reject him as he's always help me out with stuffs..
then i got into his car..
he brought me around ukm with his car..
he drove to somewhere very hidden..
(ukm pal) do u know the rumah haiwan?
i was told that it's way further from kkm..
u must pass by kkm then go further n further to reach there..
he brought me went through all the narrow roads n creepy jungle with no lights around..
i was shocked to know that there was such hidden place in ukm..
that fellow really siao one..
haih..
brought me to those places for a ride..
then we finally exit those creepy place n sat down to talk..
he actually know i was in bad mood then thought wanna open my mind..
haha..
but then i was bad enough to not to tell..
then he made me tell..
i...
finally could no longer hang on...
tears drop..
he saw me crying...
he just sat down quietly n wait till i finish...
his silence did make me feel his care..
thanks to him..
i released all my bad feelings by crying that night..
when i'm having a very important paper the next day which i not yet even finish studied half of the syllabus..
until the point that i dun wanna cry anymore..
i stopped n told him everything..
n while telling him,
tears started to drop again... ^^
he gave me advice..
he tried to help me out..
he listen to my tears..
he's teaching my heart..
n repairing my mind..
n i dunno if what he's done was enough to help me out..
but then those tears will definitely spoil my paper on the next day..
account..
please dun be so hard...
after i felt better n wanted to go back..
he send me back..
i wanted to continue study actually..
while lying on the bed n reading the notes..
my eyes told me it's time to close n rest..
=.=
then i slowly fell asleep..
n i guess it was around 4am.. >.<

then came to the next day..
i got no time to think about anything else than studying for my account..
i was so pik cik that morning..
again another morning n noon without any food into the stomach..
i study study study n tried past year..
then balancing accounts..
still din get the solution..
but then it's ok lar...
coz it wasn't exam after all..
then came to exam..
i was very nervous lor..
coz past year paper seemed hard..
the only thing i can describe bout the paper is,
"it was so much easier compared to past year paper but most of us didn't know how to do"..
haha...
so..
er...
what else can i say?
if it's really ruined,
i can only blame myself for not putting enough effort in it..
haih...
sad....